Oh my dear little blog. How poorly I treat you. How often I ignore you. It’s not that I don’t think of you or want to write here. It’s just that all the posts I start either seem dumb, whiny or end up taking me so long they become irrelevant.

Life is so full these days. I am feeling rather overwhelmed by it all. The move went as well as we could have expected. There were a few minor issues along the way but all in all, it was pretty darn good! The house is amazing. We absolutely love it. There is so much space. So many features that we’ve dreamed of in a home. A fireplace. 4 big bedrooms. A walkout basement. An amazing, private backyard. The kids love it too and feel very comfortable here. As we paint and change fixutres etc it seems more and more like home. Our neighbourhood is great too. People have been very friendly and have made a point of introducing themselves. It seems that anything that is missing from our neighbourhood is on the way. A public school is currently being built at the end of our street (to open September 2008). A huge grocery store is being built 3 blocks away. So pretty much, it’s all good yo!

Tomorrow I am going to be 34 weeks along in my pregnancy. That my friends is beyond crazy. This pregnancy was so unexpected and I have been so busy since we found out about it that I just haven’t really connected with this little one. Makes me feel sort of sad and sort of guilty. I have a sizable tummy that jumps and bounces but somehow I still don’t feel like a baby is going to makes it’s way out in the next several weeks. I feel like this baby deserves better but I’m at a loss as to what I can do. Should I sit on my bed for an hour each day and contemplate my navel? Should I attempt to purchase cute little baby items until I buy into the feeling retailers are selling? Or should I just continue on in my state of ignorance and be shell shocked in a few weeks when little baby so and so arrives? I know that I will love this precious little life once… ta da… he/she is placed in my arms. I just don’t know if I believe it is actually going to happen.

Part of what is making life so difficult right now is that I am finding our two children rather overwhelming. They are non freaking stop. Ceaseless. They are kicking the proverbial crap out of me. They have come though some pretty big changes and I am trying to remember and sympathize with that. They left all that is familiar out west and have adapted pretty well to a totally new life. Most significantly, they left all of their friends behind. Translate all of that into they said goodbye to all of their outlets and hello to “Mommy-our-only-source-of-amusement”. They don’t leave me alone for more than about 10 seconds at a time. Mommy watch this. Mommy help me. Mommy I’m bored. Mommy where is Daddy. Ahhhhhhhhh! Mommy sometimes hides in her bathroom so they can’t find her for 2 minutes. Sure will be fun to add a constantly nursing newborn to the mix! I really don’t want to focus on the negatives but man, this is getting old in a hurry.

Added to the daily challenges is a new resistance to bedtime. Our kids have traditionally been very easy to put to bed. G has often stayed up reading or playing quietly in her bed for about a half an hour but she was quiet and stayed in bed. Now both of them continually come out of their rooms, call for us and if we are lucky, stand at the top of the stairs screaming about how hungry and thirsty they are. Love it!

As my last complaint, G has had diarrhea since we moved and has regressed to the point of pooping and peeing her pants at least 4 times a day. Truly there is nothing like cleaning up crap running down your fully capable 3 year olds legs multiple times a day… with a huge belly! Forgive me for the rant. It has been a bit much and all I can think is that we are going to add to it!

Every night when I go to bed I think to myself, “tomorrow will be a better day”. Tonight is no exception. I am dropping N off at my Dad’s office tomorrow morning to spend the day driving around with Poppa. I know they will both love it. Then G and I are going to hang with my Mom for the day. A little swimming, little baby shopping and a little attempting to figure out where on earth Sears has put the furniture they were supposed to deliver 2 days ago but seem to have completely lost! Should be a better day.

Cheers!

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