ride

Excuse me while I catch my breath! The last few months have been nuts, to say the least. There is no short version of our very long story so I’ll just say that we started a business and it rocks except for the parts that don’t but we’ll adjust to those aspects (or just get over them).

I’m feeling pretty intense and, truth be told, GRUMPY these days. As much as I’d like to be, I’m just not one of those people who thrives on chaos, loves being busy ALL THE TIME or who can somehow produce inspired art/crafts/writing/photos/whatever when I feel like my head is about to EXPLODE. I need some peace in my life and there has not been much of that around these parts.

When I look around my house, I can feel so discouraged. I work all day yet, there is so much that isn’t done. The weeds are choking out our garden. The basement exploded… again. I’m pretty sure that our ensuite is a health hazard. And the eaves overflow every time it rains (so pretty much daily). It seems like there are lots of people out there who somehow stay on top of all this stuff (or just don’t care when it doesn’t get done) and my question is “HOW DO YOU DO IT?”. Seriously. And don’t tell me that a housekeeper or a nanny is the solution cause that doesn’t factor into the “we just started a business” budget. I read peoples blogs and just marvel at the whole I’ve got five kids and I just made my own dining room table and arranged our books by colour thing. How do you go about whipping up a cute little sundress for your daughter in between supper and bathtime? Do you ever do the dishes? Cook? Hang out on the lawn looking at the clouds? For real, what do your houses look like and how much help do you have behind the scenes? I’ve got blackout fabric taped to the windows because I don’t have the time to sew a simple pocket for a curtain rod! No matter how hard I try, I just can’t seem to strike the magical balance.

Right now I’m finding the kids stuff the most overwhelming. Parenting is not for the faint of heart! More crumbs hit the floor than fill their bellies, neighbour’s windows get broken when they throw ROCKS they know they are not allowed to, sleep gets interrupted over and over, fights break out before we say good morning, four loads of freshly washed and folded laundry gets chucked helter skelter during the 42 seconds it takes me to pee! It’s like a non-stop three ringed circus around here. All we need is a dog and pony and we can take our show on the road.

Some people don’t talk about the stuff that drives them nuts on their blogs (and then there are others who talk about nothing else). I try to focus on the positive but when we are going through a tough season, it feels dishonest not to acknowledge that. I’ve talked about the good stuff plenty. I love my life but it’s not fun every single day. Some days suck and truth be told, some months suck too. Working through these seasons and coming out the other side helps me to appreciate the little moments like giggling with my kids, drinking a cup of hot tea in the morning sunshine with my husband, putting the finishing touches on a homemade gift for a friend. I’m going to find a way to get back to the simple, easy way we had a few months ago. Until then, you can find me under the big top.

test Filed under Family |