away

February 24th, 2010

Mr. T and I went away this weekend WITHOUT the children. It was lovely. Mr. T is still recovering from pneumonia so it was a pretty low key weekend. Just what we needed really. We started with massages at the spa on Friday afternoon. That set the tone for our weekend. Chilled out. We had lots of good food and wine, a few short adventures, naps and best of all, uninterrupted time together. It was so wonderful to have a conversation at 11 in the morning that didn’t involve the din of our kids in the background (or right in our faces as is often the case). I do so enjoy that husband of mine!

This is the only picture I took this weekend (and I don’t know why it’s so small). This was taken out of our hotel window.

Sometimes my family gets sick of me always having a camera in front my face. This weekend I wanted to just be in our moments without feeling like I had to capture images of them. Instead, I took mental snapshots all weekend - little pictures that will live in my memories. Thanks for a great weekend Mr. T. and thank you to my parents for looking after the kids. You had 3 kids so you know how great it is to get away from it all for a few days.

#3

February 16th, 2010

This guy:

So very thankful for him. Mr. T is a big part of the reason I love my life.

Not only is he easy on the eyes, he also makes me a cup of tea nearly every morning (even the ones where I get up first but never get around to it).

He cooks the most AMAZING dinners every Sunday night and has them ready to serve right when I walk in the door from my run (if it’s really cold out, he holds dinner a bit so I can have a shower first). His food is so good that I would happily pay for it in a restaurant AND he doesn’t complain when I smell really bad after I run.

He encourages me and gives me specific feedback on my photography because he knows I’m needy like that.

He works really, really hard to support our family and spend lots of time with us.

Everyone likes him. He’s just one of those guys.

He pretty much always has a 5:00 shadow.

He’s thoughtful- just this morning even though he is sick with pneumonia (PNEUMONIA for crying out loud!) he ordered me a HUGE new hard drive for my computer (but that might have been so I will stop crying every time I open my laptop and try to do something crazy like open my e-mail and safari at the same time!). He’s also archiving all 5 billion of my photos for me because that also makes me cry.

I love you Mr. T.

#2

February 12th, 2010

Days when the sky gets this blue:

February 7th, 2010

Reason to LOVE my life #1

This is the view from my kitchen window.

Amazing.

love

February 6th, 2010

Hello.

You know that feeling you get when it’s been way too long since you’ve talked to a good friend? You want to call them and say hi but you missed their birthday or you forgot to send them a Christmas card or it’s just been so darn long that you wonder if they even want to talk to you anymore (much less remember you). I’ve been feeling like that lately.

I love this little blog (if I do say so myself!). It’s like a friend to me. A place where I can share a bit of myself and try to make sense of this funny little life of mine. I like to look back and remember little snippets here and there that the sands of time so easily sift from my mind. To recall how I was feeling in a particular season, funny things our kids said, moments I was thankful for (or, not so thankful as the case may be). There is so much beauty in everyday. This blog helps me to see it in my own life.

Sometimes, or to be more honest, OFTEN, I get overwhelmed by my life. These early years with our children are just so encompassing. Our daily life is full to overflowing. I struggle to balance all the parts of our life. Marriage, kids, relationships, our business, dreams, laundry… It’s hard to know how to fit it all in, do it well and LOVE it along the way. When I begin to feel like I’m not managing the flesh and blood part of our life well, I tend not to visit here as often as I would like. I write daily in my HEAD but it often doesn’t get translated here. I take pictures that I want to share with you but then get swamped and by the time I get around to sitting on my couch and opening a browser, the moment has passed or I can’t remember what it was I wanted to say.

January was a hard month for me. 2009 felt a lot like a snowball rolling out of control down the side of a mountain. By the time December came, it was so huge that it just swallowed up everything in it’s path and then crashed right into 2010. I am tired. Drained, really. I’ve also been sad. Annoyingly, stupidly sad and I wish that I wasn’t but I have been. Lots of good things have happened. I’ve laughed quite a bit but I’ve also cried more than I would like. I’ve spent too much time staring out a window and then regretting the wasted minutes. I’ve spent more days in my pajamas than is probably reasonable. That’s just the truth of where I’m at. It’s an uphill battle. A daily choice.

At the beginning of January I decided that my “theme” for 2010 would be LOVE. When I open my eyes and choose to see, love surrounds me. The love of God envelopes my days and cradles my life. I might not have it all figured out, but I do know this, we all need love. We crave it. We thrive on it. Love validates our humanity and assures us that we are not alone. That we matter. Life can be messy. But when it’s covered in love, it is beautiful. Love is EVERYWHERE, it’s just a matter of choosing to see it. That’s what I want to do this year. Find love in the everyday. In the little moments. The unexpected places. To choose to see love, even when I feel sad for no particular reason.

Thanks for visiting here. Your comments and e-mails make me feel loved.

(Seen on the hood of a car on the way to the park.)