out

I just finished packing! We are out of here tomorrow. It is so weird to be leaving home to go home for a visit. Know what I mean? I’m super pumped to see our friends. I miss my girls. I’m going to visit our neighbours on Thursday. It’s going to be so bizarre to be 3 doors up from our house and not go in it. Can’t wait to visit some of our favourite places. Thinking about it is making me feel rather homesick.

Although I’m thrilled to be going, there is a part of me that is sad. It’s so hard to leave my kids behind. It feels like part of me is missing. I always get emotional before I say goodbye to them. Hopefully the old adage is true about absence making the heart grow stronger. It will be good to miss them and be missed.

logic

Oh the logic and humour of a 5 year old boy…

N: Can I have dessert?
R: Nope.
N: Why not?
R: Because you are 5 and 5 year olds can’t have dessert on Saturday’s.
N: That’s not fair.
R: I know but it’s just one of those dessert rules.
N: I have a new rules. 20’s can’t have dessert either.
R: 20’s?
N: (whispers to Daddy) How old are you guys?
T: 31
N: I mean, 31 year olds don’t get dessert either. That’s my rule.
T: But my rule is that the people who buy the food get to make the rules.
N: Well, I just farted…

Oh, NaBloPoMo, you are kicking my butt a little bit!

wondering

1. Why does my 2 month old who has slept well from birth feel the need to nurse EVERY. TWO. HOURS. AROUND. THE. CLOCK? It started about a week and a half ago and really hasn’t let up. I’m down with it during the day but could we agree on say, every 4 hours at night?
2. Why did this need to coinside with T being away?
3. What is it that drives people to tell me how much it sucks having 3 kids? My one friend recently told me that she wanted to be honest and say that it never gets better… only busier. Thanks? When you tell me how bad it is, what exactly do you expect me to do? Give one of them away?
4. How did I survive T working 60+ hour work weeks and raise children without extra help? Seriously, I would have gone batty this fall without my family.
5. Does forgetfulness get worse with each child (or do we never remember how much we forgot?)? It’s bad people, really bad.
6. Why do people fall all over first time mothers with sympathy for how tired they are and how hard this mother gig is and then act like women with 3+ children should just suck it up already? I’ve gotten a distinct “you made your bed, now lie in it” feeling from several people (in particular older mothers!). Do women forget how far a simple empathetic response can go for an exhausted fellow mother?
7. Could every fall be as warm and amazing as this one? Please?
8. How do you lose all of your pregnancy weight and still not fit into your pre-pregnancy pants?
9. How can I stain my oak kitchen cupboards to look like walnut without stripping them? They are starting to really bug me.

today’s bullets

* Satellite tv rocks! Oh how I missed you HGTV, TLC and Food network! And the silence that Treehouse brings is pure bliss.
* Somehow I’ve gained less than 20 pounds so far in this pregnancy. That excites me because there is a magic number that I was hoping never to go over. I might just miss it!
* Was at the OBGYN today. Her office is on the maternity floor at the hospital. Now I know where to go in case of labour!
* I’m feeling very pregnant lately. Very tired. Aching back. Cranky and hot. But I still don’t want the baby to come early. Much easier to deal with inside.
* I’ve decided never to grocery shop with my kids again. Something strange happens to them as we walk though the doors of any grocery store. They turn into little maniacs who whine and cry the entire time we are in the store. Today they broke a new record. Both of them were in tears over RASPBERRIES within 45 seconds of walking in the door. I’m not kidding. I cried on the way home I was so embarassed. Again. So no more trips to kill time.
* G has been accident free for 3 days now! It has been a long process getting back to here but we have determined that positive reinforcement works best for her. She eats it up and then licks the bowl.
* Sears has the worst customer service EVER! Still don’t have our furniture. We are meant to have it delivered to my parents house tomorrow (for some reason they can’t deliver it to our house… that would be convenient for us) but they have screwed up the times. I got through to head office today and spoke to someone I thought would be helpful. She told me that she’d make some calls and call me back. Surprise! She never called back and I forgot to write down her name. Is it too much to ask that we actually get the furniture we purchased in March? Will I ever have a couch to lie down on? Jerking around a woman who is 35 weeks pregnant and crabby at the best of times is just not smart.
* Daily swimming lessons are brillant! We are all loving them and really look forward to them every morning.

Boring post. I know. But that’s all I’ve got today!

Questions

1. Why do my children always act their worst on “special” days, like say, ummmm Mother’s Day?
2. How can I feel so excited about moving and so dreadfully sad all at the same time?
3. Who put all that crap in my basement that I have to sort through? Surely it couldn’t have been me.
4. When will this baby inside of me feel real? Oh, and what the heck am I going to do with a third child?
5. Why do my kids have their off moments and killer meltdowns in front of the preschool parents who already think I’m a bit off since we aren’t sending our kids to private school? Why can’t they wait 12 more seconds until we are in the van? Or maybe not at all?
6. Will I get along with my family and see them as much as I hope to after we move.
7. How big am I actually going to get this time around? Will I float better in the lake this summer?

Just a few of the burning questions banging around in my head lately.

it’s warm

The weather is breaking! This morning it was -45 degrees celcius with windchill (that’s -49 fahrenheit for my American friends) when we woke up and now it is an almost balmy -18C (about 0). We can start walking the dog again and sending the kids outside to play. Believe me, we all need it!

So, on this the second last day of NaBloPoMo, that is what I am celebrating! Here’s to Canadian winters and the next Chinook.

there is not room for all of us

This city has gotten too big and too busy. It is impossible to get anywhere at any time of the day without getting stuck in traffic. Today it took me over an hour to drive a few kilometers in the middle of the day. I am so sick of sitting in “traffich”, as my kids call it. I’m sick of missing music class because no matter how hard I try we CAN’T GET THERE. I hate that I can’t find a parking spot at Walmart even after 9:00PM because there are so many people there. This city is killing me.

On a lighter note, Happy Thanksgiving to my American friends.

not much

I don’t have much today. It was a pretty crappy day. I woke up with a headache and things just kept getting worse until the grande crescendo this evening.

I still haven’t gotten my period. I am feeling sick. I have the ultrasound I first mentioned “here(here)”:http://betweenmeandme.com/article/14/feeling-a-bit-freaked tomorrow. I am hoping they don’t find anything. I still don’t have anyone to look after the kids so that is another worry. I’m trying not to fuss or make a big deal out of it but I can’t help but feel a bit worried.

For the last few months we have been a two vehicle family. We really don’t need two cars so we have decided to sell our car. Our friend is going to sell it for us since he really likes that sort of thing and we kind of hate it. T e-mailed our friend all the info this afternoon and then on his way home from work got into a four car pile up! He seems to only have a bit of whiplash and the car doesn’t look too bad which we are thankful for. Seriously though, what gives? This is not what we needed. We have tried to sell this car two other times with no success so we are starting to wonder…

Oh and for the record, I know that when you click on my article titles that the pages are all messed up. I’ve got my resident programmer on it. The little girl *finally* asleep on his chest is making it a challenge. As is his snoring.

sunday night

Very tired so this post will have numbered points. Very lazy too.

1. I had a bad weekend. Very stressful. No sleep. Husband with the flu. GRUMPY kids. Family visiting.
2. My husband has a consultation for the BIG V on Tuesday.
3. My period is 5 days late.
4. #3 coud mean absolutely nothing cause it’s not unusual for my cycle to get out of whack. My period has a tendancy to be uncooperative.
5. #3 could mean something that would change the look of the future rather, uh, shall we say, dramatically.
6. It is highly unadvisable to wear crocs the the grocery store when it is icy, snowy, slushy or a lethal combination of all three. I did today and had very wet, cold feet that slid around in my shoes making me trip and then drop the twelve pack of ginger ale I had just purchased for my sick husband . One can flew out of the box and burst open spraying said ginger ale all over my face, jacket and the inside of T’s car! I let out a little scream which sent “very nice man” running to help me because he thought someone was hiding in my car. I was laughing so hard I could hardly speak to tell him that it was just a pop can that was asaulting me.
7. I do not have hypothyroidism. Guess I am just breaking down.
8. Cuuuuuuuuuuuuurtiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis (that’s for the one person besides my husband who knows I have a personal blog).
9. Even though only two people whom I know personally know that I have a blog, I still can’t write about a lot of things that are on my mind.
I0. I finally mastered creme caramel tonight! I’ll post that recipe one Friday.

Good night.